Thursday, June 14, 2007,5:31 PM
It has been one and a half month that i started st james power station.. my good. it a good exprience for everyone i guess. there are good time and there are also bad times. Afew my 1st month there at boiler room the politics start to come in.. the manager of boiler room say that the guys are too gay on stage- but we still pull more crowd than the last banch of dancers there. And the girls love us more. Than when they cannot say anything they start blaming the girls and the band.. i dont get them. They are so piss with SoulKool( the band At boiler room) for wat? Because Raw Energy is not performing there any more.. that just fucking stupid. plss lah..
Than now one of the china guy dancer went bacn to china for 2 weeks to visit his mom which is in the hospital.. and i have to replace his at dragonfly.. learning item before the show every single nite.. my god i think i will breakdown from all this stupid shit lor. On stage we are always smiling but behind stage, there the real show. and now when i complain to my own friends at boiler room about dragonfly, this person would ask me to stop complaining every single nite. i'm piss with that person but i just say to myself its work lor.. it still hurt but wat can i do.. just write in this blog lor.
Izzit fair for me to listen to everyone problem every single day or nite.. than no one to talk too about my own problems!!!! is that fair.. i feel so alone now.. never ever i feel this alone .. really im the only malay dancing with all the china dancer.. i look very out and blur on stage at time.. i so dont know wat to do but just look pretty on stage..
From now on i just keep quiet about the dragonfly to them and just do my work like im not there lor. i so dont know if i going to stay there for long.. maybe 3 more month if everythings is ok.. if not.. i think i will try out flying.. its just hurting to hear your own friend say that. i know i can talk alot at time and i know i can be the most quietest person.. let just see wat happened today lah... im very tired and still i need to do alot of things.. it suck .. just Allah is the only one who know how i am now..
Now i really dont know wat i just writen.. ....
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